How it started…
I was on my way to the burial of my friend’s dad in July 2023, when what I call a “trigger memory” occurred. This memory was from around 20 years before. This friend had touched me many times with her words stating that, “She sees me.” This is part of where the “Unseen but Seen” name for this blog began, where these words were being put in my face and shown to me in scripture over time. When you pay attention, God has an adventure and puzzles for you to solve through details that are around you daily. You only need to seek and find what He has in store for you.
The memory:
In the memory, I remember all the feelings and chaos that were going on in my life at the time. I was with a guy who was abusive. I used to say, my abuser, but that is not the case of claim anymore. This is simply a hurt person who hurt me and other people. He got away with bad behavior and continued in what he wanted to do because he could and the consequences didn’t deter him. In the past he controlled and abused me, and I allowed it, but not anymore. God has freed me fully from this hold that was on me in December 2023.
What did the memory show me?
The memory made me remember my grandpa, who showed up for me in this stressful situation. I needed to go to work because I was scheduled. This guy said, “I don’t want to walk with you and you can’t go without me.” He finally allowed me to go, but not without a fight physically and emotionally. I could only go if I had someone give me a ride to get to work. In this situation, I was given a ride to work from my grandpa. This act of service showed me the love and care of my grandfather and reflects how my heavenly father, God, was taking care of me through it all. It brought me tears of joy, seeing the protection I had and the love and care that I was shown, despite my choices at the time.
What happened to free me?
God showed me the trigger memory. He showed me that I would be writing this blog, “Unseen but Seen.” I would use this to complete my healing process and help others see that they are not alone. In my dream, I was shown that I had an hour to write a letter and it was meant to save him and turn him to God. I awoke and wrote the letter. Everything was orchestrated perfectly into place within a matter of a short time span, as if God gave me this big download of information. Everything down to what to write, where he was, and how to send it. Then, came the time to wait and pray. Another way of looking at this is to ask, seek, knock. That way, when everything happens, God’s timing is in it, He will get the glory, and many will be saved.
Waiting:
This dream came in August 2023. Everything was ready the morning of August 16th. I had to hurry in the dream because his time was running out. In the dream, it was an hour timespan, but to God time is different. 2 Peter 3 One day to God is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. If this is the time span, then I don’t have a need to rush as I think I do. I felt the need to complete the task quickly, but the timing to send it was not so clear. During this time, I spent asking, seeking, and knocking for God’s answer to come. The time I sent this letter was December 2023, which was about 4 months roughly of waiting.
Who did I ask?
During the wait, I asked some ladies I know who have been in similar situations about this letter. God has brought these ladies into my life gradually over time; we are not alone in what has happened to us. I asked some who were older and wiser. They gave their input. I asked my husband. He gave his input. Then, I asked my pastor. He prayed on it, answered me, and told me the answer was to pray. At this time, I wasn’t sure if God wanted me to do as Abraham did and follow Him on what he said until he would stop me, like with Isaac, or move forward with sending it. I chose to follow the path of prayer as directed through our pastor. I felt it was God’s leading and the path to His perfect plan.
It’s time:
The timing of it came to mind as I asked these people. Then, I forgot about the letter entirely for several weeks or a couple of months. It was getting closer to the date I thought of and I couldn’t find the letter. I took that as a sign and left it alone, but soon after the letter appeared out of where I had left it. I only needed a few more pieces put together that God set in place. It was time. December 2023, the letter left the post office.
Why help?
2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. This guy has kids, sons, maybe daughters, who will have this generational sin to fight. Their father can fight the generational iniquity, turn to God, and God will help them all as He has helped me. God can move mountains in this families generational iniquities. I did my part as the disciples and anyone else who followed God’s instructions for them did. If he listens to God’s call and changes, to God be the glory. If not, Matthew 10:14 And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet. I did what I could, and I am free.
In conclusion:
Keep in mind, these are my steps with God and yours are likely to be different. Remember to pray, fast, ask, seek, and knock as you are called to while waiting. God will direct your steps as He has directed mine. Every situation is different and we are all at different levels of experiences and healing. Mine may be similar to yours, but different. Yours may be similar to mine, but different. Each one of us has our own experience and walk. No one is lesser for anything they have gone through. Our thoughts and feelings are valid and we have a choice in how to work through them. I am not perfect. But God loves you as He loves me. I love you, and you matter. God made each of us for a purpose and a plan Jeremiah 29:11. God is good; John 3:16 and Psalm 145:9.